today, this will be Jou's first ever Non Swear Post!
yayyyyyyy~!
i don't think I'll need to try either.
Looking up at the ominous grey skies, dark clouds looming overhead;
and given the mood I've been shrouded in of late,
its a wonder that faith and belief in life has been restored once again.
though not completely, and still, i remain shaken from past instances,
when everything seemed to be shattering to pieces and when all hope was lost,
life and fate have a miraculous way of giving you the tiniest bit of hope in your darkest hours.
hope to keep you going, and hope so you don't give up completely,
but most importantly, hope that what you believe in isn't as impossible and stupid as you'd have yourself believe.
though i have a feeling that it may be stormy weathers ahead, the skies will clear eventually, and a rainbow, pure and beautiful, a symbol of hope and all you have waited for will finally appear.
i feel recharged once again, and that i have the energy and faith within myself to stand up bravely once again to continue fighting this fight which we call life.
thank you for giving me the hope that fuels me.
((p.s. Hey BABE! this one's for YOU ;D))
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hello world~!
i know i haven't really been posting much at all lately, and i've heard the news going around the circle lately, and i want to clarify some things now ;D
- Im NOT single and not on the market again.
- the trip to malaysia was NOT for a huge get together party. my grandfather passed away.
anyway, yeah.
so i was there for the funeral.. it was a buddhist one, and i was on duty at night every night. that was basically carrying a hollowed out plastic chair-leg-ish thing to protect myself while: looking after the outside of the house, watering the flowers, checking the guestbook,making sure the candles and jossticks didnt burn out and changing the batteries on the tape player thing that was chanting. and playing with mikey, the dog. i bought it lots of treats. hehe.
the days were spent mostly sleeping, and we all had to be veg.
oh, we also had lots of relatives at night, most of whom, i dont know at all.
most of them were pissed that i didnt call them the right thing, and i met some cousins and aunts and uncles and grandfloks that i never even knew i had. ...the old ladies seem to like calling me fat and pale though. lol..??
umm....
yeah, that's about it i guess.
OH~!
i had this weird ass dream about my grandpa the day i got there.
he asked me why he didnt have any shoes on. (the body was already in the casket and covered up when i got there)
i later found out that when he died, his feet were too swollen for the faily to get into his shoes, so they had to wait a shitload of time for the casketcompany peoples to do it for them. lol the family spent the next few days asking me, every 2 seconds or whenever i fell asleep, if i had "heard anything from him yet".
ha-bloody-ha.
also, chanting from the scriptures is fun.
there were some not so fun things that happened too, so why dont you guys who want to know, ask me personally.. cos i have family reading this blog too. so... yeah.
anyways, im down to starting the second half of my law thingy. aren't you guys happy for me?? ;D
our lecturer is kickass... haha...
andand.. ummm...........
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im pregenant.
no but seriously, i dont think i have much more to say really.
all there is left is the fact that a lot of things have been bothering me lately.
well, more things and more than usual.
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i'll leave randomly like how todays post is, but i'll leave on 2 things.
- why do girls all seem to always go for (or dream about being with) the "badboy but is really aching on the inside-misunderstood good guy waiting to shine through" kinda guy? what, do we honestly still believe that we can change them and make things better??? on the outside, all the drama seems sweet and all, and sometimes it is, but really, most of the time, its emotionally draining and depressing and it never turns out like tv. ....honestly, we all know that. and we tell our friends not to even bother with it, but when we get into it, its all "fun and games and dramu like tv".. until someone gets hurt. ..i mean, seriously, come on people!! this is just plain stupid. and no, im not a quitter, im just acknowledging the truth. can you? ....didn't think so.
and 2
- a quote "there are lots of people in the world who want to see you hurt. but there are also people who are hurt when seeing you hurt"
reflect on it people.
im off to watch more of my dramus and maybe neopets somemore.
here's a rundown of my site haunts:
- creepypasta
- neopets.
- 4chan
- mysoju
- fmylife
- mydivadoll
- reignofblood
- and a few others + random searching and stumble finds.
ciao lovelies~
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